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2009-10-21

The Shadow Self

Tantric truths are seldom easy to handle. The tantric path is not a comfortable, easy path. It entails a total disintegration of what you THINK. Your perspectives, beliefs, conclusions, self image. Et al.

Progress happens through DESTRUCTION or the illusion of it.
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...Passage from Kundalini-Teacher.Com...

Link: Kundalini-Teacher.Com

"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."


The Litany against Fear, from "Dune" by Frank Herbert.


"Good does not become better by being exaggerated, but worse, and a small evil becomes a big one through being disregarded and repressed. The shadow is very much a part of human nature, and it is only at night that no shadows exist." -- Carl Jung.

"Who knows what evil lurks in the heart of man...? The Shadow Knows" -- The Shadow. (Radio drama.)

Carl Jung defined the Shadow Self as "that which we think we are not."

In the process of becoming All that Is, that which we think we are not must be embraced as an aspect of the Greater Self, and integrated. You may believe that you are not like your neighbor who does this or that bad thing, but if those negative qualities you judge, were not also a part of you, then they would not trigger your emotions.

You may believe that you are a spiritual person who is not cruel or unjust, but that belief is a blockage that casts a shadow that can blind you to the cruelty within your ego that is hidden. The shadow shows the "Ugly Mirror of All that Is": you are what you judge yourself not to be. You are what you judge others to be....

Read the rest of this essay at "The Shadow Self" by Mystress Angelique Serpent.
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Here is an old artwork of mine, in which I have shown a nice, pleasant looking Sharon Stone transforming.....

There is nothing wrong with this transformation. Is my contention. Its not illness or insanity.




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Recommended Link for understanding the 'SHADOW' in more detail: Dakini Notes.

2009-10-08

The Infinite Microcosm & True Nature of Reality


Photo Ctsy. UrbanSamurai.Org.Uk.


Summary: The microcosm is an infinitely deep non-mathematical ocean. The sub-atomic level as we know it barely scrapes the surface.

The Mathematical Map

Consider the equation Force = Mass X Acceleration.

Is it what is actually happening in reality?

Or is it just a mathematical description of what's happening, using references, concepts, terms, that we find convenient?

This equation is just a map of reality. It maps a certain natural process, that, in itself is *not* mathematical.

Nature does not flow in terms of numbers. Nature does not calculate the weight and chemical composition of a rock before creating it.

Nature did not precalculate/predecide the voltage range of lightening, or the pH level of the dead sea or any sea for that matter. Nor did it calculate the mass of the sun and the planets before creating the solar system.

Nature flows in a smooth, continuous, non mathematical flow. Like a song. The mathematical map of a song, in terms of numbers, amplitudes, frequencies...is that a complete expression/representation of the song?
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Nature has no 'mechanism'. It is not a machine that runs logically and mathematically.

Building a mathematical model of a process, extrapolating it, and expecting the process to manifest in the same manner or manner similar to your extrapolation can never lead to correct results. Because nature does not 'extrapolate itself mathematically'. We think it is this way because we confuse the map with the territory.

Mathematics, no matter how evolved, no matter how refined....will always remain just a map.

A fractal mathematical map of corals(below)...can never 'predict' how a 'real coral' will manifest next. For the abovementioned reasons.

Photo Ctsy. Migel.Com.
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The Infinite Microcosm

The GAP between the scientific map of nature and the actual flow of nature can never go away because the microcosm is infinitely deep AND because the microcosm/macrocosm is not mathematical.

The cosmos will throw our way deeper and deeper mysteries, even if mankind survives a billion trillion years without forgetting its knowledge.

We can 'see' things at the nano level (10-9m) using existing technology.

I do not agree that it is impossible to see below 10-35m...i.e. Planck Length.

The day we see at 10 X nano level (10-90m), we'll see newer things.

The day we 'see' at 100 X Nano level (10-900m) we'll see newer things.

There would certainly be things going on at 1000 X Nano level (10-9000m).

And the 100,000 X Nano level (10-900000m).....Ad Infinitum.

As we dive deeper and deeper into the microcosm....the complexity and the richness will keep on INCREASING. This conclusion of mine is based on my understanding of the "FRACTAL GEOMETRY OF NATURE".

And...assuming that the things we see at the 100,000 X Nano level (10-900000m) will be a repetition of the things we have seen at the nano level (10-9m).....this assumption would not be a wise assumption.

So forget your electrons, protons, quarks...these mathematical maps just barely scrape the surface of the infinite microcosm.

The cosmos was, is, and will remain...forever mystical.


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2009-09-07

The Expression of Healing...

I'm back, after a long gap of 6 months...will update once a week, at least, from now on.
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Was discussing the frightful level of loneliness and lack of authenticity in human life with a friend.

There is a severe lack of substance in human interactions. Which leads to a host of problems for EVERYONE.

Too much polite conversation is bad for health. Lack of proper expression of how one feels leads to a severely restricted flow of life within us...

We often think we can express ourselves to a "REAL" friend...but years of repression and polite, careful conversation turns into a habit. We are unable to express. And if we do succeed in expressing things to a friend, it leaves us feeling afraid, vulnerable...
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So what is the answer? The answer lies in finding a channel for expressing SORROW...

The basic concept:

Fundamental to healing is catharsis. Slow or fast. It does not matter. As long as the catharsis happens.

Expression of sorrow is catharsis. All the emotions that the body has repressed, if they start flowing again, it leads to health.

So crying is actually a GOOD thing.
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Through pain and tears, strength and life appear...and nothing heals like the graceful expression of sorrow...

K.D. Lang peforms "Crying", originally by Roy Orbison. Beautiful performance by a saintly presence...




Beautiful performance by a saintly presence...

2009-03-28

Synchronicity - (My Poetry)

An old poem of mine. Its on a girl, not on a river."



"Synchronicity"

She is poetry in motion
a walking symphony
a graceful naiad
an elegant meander
in a sparkling river

She is
curvaceous elegance
a gentle whisper
a delicate accent
a magical whirl
in a delightful breeze

She is synchronicity
a mysterious deja vu
a cosmic sruti
a transcendental wiggle
(that leaves you begging!)

She is
mesmerising presence
her sorcery
a natural emanation

Amazing that
exquisite beauty
walks this earth.


© 2009 Vikram Madan.